Today marks four months since Kayli went home to Heaven. Four months since I have looked in her eyes, gave her a hug, seen her smile or heard her laugh. Four months. As the awareness of her absence is heightened on days like today...the size of the crater left is tough to get around. Yet, I do it in each moment. As I have aged, I have realized that life is a series of moments. I am so thankful for all the moments that I have tucked away in my heart. 21 years with Kayli to be savored for my lifetime. It somehow feels not enough and overflowing at the same time. Crazy I know. Yet, of all the moments shared with my daughter, one of our very favorite things to do was have "coffee time". Coffee time was a time to sit, have a cup of joe and plunge deep into each others lives. It was going beyond the surface and loving big on one another. It was precious. Kayli taught me so much about pursuing other people. She learned the art of loving with abandon and having the hard conversations to make you a better version of yourself. She lived her 21 years well. Was she perfect?? NO!! Did she make mistakes?? More than she would like to remember. But, she knew that you are not defined by your mistakes when Christ is Lord of your life. She knew forgiveness. She extended that to others. You can't give to other people what you do not have yourself. You can't love fiercely if you don't know a limitless love. You can't forgive others when they wrong you if you haven't experienced perfect forgiveness in your life. You can't pursue someone's heart if you haven't know the pursuit of Christ. This list could go on. Kayli knew Christ and this was shown in how she poured into others. Coffee time. Today I have my coffee alone. Tears flow as I remember how wonderful it was to have had those days with my precious girl . In her good-bye video to me, she says, "And if there is coffee in Heaven...we will have coffee time together". I can't wait baby girl...i really can't wait. So I challenge you to start a "coffee time" in your life. Even if you'are not a coffee drinker...it doesn't matter. Put down the phone, the ipad, ipod, laptop, game system...whatever steals your attention from those in your life. Turn it off. Sit down with someone important to you and pour into them. Don't squander your relationships waiting for a better time or when this or that happens. You don't know how today will play out and you may never get that opportunity again. Coffee time. Give God your best and leave the results up to Him. I am praying for you.
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Joy Steiner
4/13/2016 10:45:55 am
Love this reminder! Thanks for helping us all see what is important in life. Thanks for being my mama #2 and pouring love into me!
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Brandy Moody
4/13/2016 11:50:19 am
Judy
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Lori Fry
4/13/2016 04:53:06 pm
Beautiful sentiments from a beautiful heart!
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